It's a "Kiss Off" kinda day.

   You know The Violent Femmes' song, "Kiss Off".  You know the lyrics - "You can all just kiss off into the air.  Behind my back I can see them stare".  Well, I am totally feeling that today.  Maybe it's the fact the New Year begins on Saturday.  Maybe it's the fact that I feel uneasy at work.  So uneasy actually, that I had a little cry today.  Maybe it's the fact that I am dealing with a new man and he is beginning to drive me crazy.  And not in a good way.  Or maybe, it's that I  have not made pie in over a week.  Let's hope it's the latter. That would be a much easier uneasiness to correct.
   Yesterday, I got a parking ticket while I was in Aveda Institute getting change for the meter.  Now, it could be that this incident began my spiral into  "Kiss Off" mode.  When the meter dude said to me, "Don't put money in the meter now. This is your spot for the whole day.", I thought my head was going to explode and rain debris all over the pavement.  That would have been a very sad thing since I was there, parked illegally for like one minute, to get my hair cut.  Needless to say, the ultra discounted hair cut will cost me as much as a cut from your average salon.  On the up side, the instructor had to redo my hair because the student could not handle it.  So my hair really does look fabulous.
   Last night, after a short text conversation in which yet another date was semi-arranged with a man who seems to be all talk, I felt downright pessimistic.  I thought - I am over you telling me how wonderful you are. I am over you canceling dates that you arranged.  I am over you inviting yourself over to my house, then falling asleep and not showing up.  This is your LAST chance to get it right.  Or you can just "Kiss Off" for good!
    Top all of that off, with a good cry at work. And you have, the last forty eight hours of my life.  Really, I have a lovely life.  I have great friends.  I have only a slightly maddening family.  Generally, I enjoy my jobs.  And I fully realize that there are many others out there who are way less fortunate than me.  This knowledge is exactly why I work with young children.  It is also why I do volunteer work within my community.  But sometimes, things that happen in my life make me angry.  Anger is a valid emotion (at least that is what I keep telling myself and the children in my class).  Tonight, there is no "Princess Doom and Gloom".  There is just me telling everyone who wants to mess with me to "KISS OFF". 
 
  PS: Not you of course. You are lovely.
  PPS:  Happy New Year!

  Arcade Fire covering "Kiss Off"